Hi everyone,
Quick post before I get back to work. I just went to the post office and mailed some depressingly pedestrian gifts for the girls. It was one of those times when, out of the blue, it hit me just how damn far away from them I am. Less than awesome, as feelings go.
If I'm honest, knowing that makes most things feel pretty pointless. All this dreck that I get published is just so much blather. And even having gotten fit and healthy seems, I dunno, kind of hollow without my own little family to share it with.
I'm kind of making peace with the likelihood that I might well not find someone new, and in any case I'm not 100% sure I would want to. I'd still like to have a little family of my own, but I also feel like that would be to treat a second wife or further children as (so to speak) a silver medal. That isn't how you should treat someone.
Sorry - I know I'm being kind of a downer here!
More later.
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