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Hi everyone,


I was on an SES callout from about 1000 this morning.  It's now 1400 and I'm about to go home.


Do you find that the Sunday blues kick your a**e too?  They seem to hook into me earlier and earlier every weekend.  Certainly at the moment I'm finding that I'm going back to the dark times I went through at other jobs.  At one stage at my first job as a lawyer I found the only part of the day I looked forward to was lunch, and that's basically my position now.  And at the job after that I dreaded the end of Sunday.  Not only was my marriage collapsing by then, but I'd go home every day feeling sick with worry and failure.  At a very black point it was a relief at the office to imagine the sense of a noose closing around my neck.

Unlike those other times, however, I'm doing something about it except waiting with that "deer in the headlights" look on my face.  I'm managing the blues themselves with medication as per usual.  And with the warmer weather I'm finding I can get a decent hit of endorphins regularly by running and exercising.  In particular I've also found that the ABC's Classic Flow yoga podcasts are something of an oasis of calm when things are tough.

🔊 Volume up for beautiful music 🎶 We’ve just learned that the Classic Flow podcast has been downloaded 333,000 times in 2017! 🙌🏼 When you include the 2016 numbers it means the dulcet tones and yogi wisdom of @larazilibowitz and the stunning classical performances of six of the most talented women in Australia have made it into your homes, your ears, your hearts almost HALF A MILLION TIMES! 💕🧘🏻‍♀️🙏🏼 A huuuuuuge thank you to all of our dedicated listeners and lovers of music and yoga around the globe 🌏 We hope you continue to discover and rediscover until we come back with more exciting news in 2018 🧡💛💚💙💜 🎶 Tenebrae, by Golijov 🎥 @marceauphotography

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I keep it together at work by thinking of groups of five things that I'm grateful for.  This really does help life my spirits.  More substantively I'm also looking for a new job.  This work is all very well, but the pay is low and the conditions dispiriting.  I can do so much more for the world than be a labourer and factory hand.


I'm not sure where life will end up, but I'm sure it'll be good when I get there.